The Circle of Life 2

Nothing makes you feel older than going to a music festival. Earlier this week I immersed myself in a sea of side boob, front boob and under boob, at Byron’s Falls Festival. In fact I think they should consider rebranding it The Byron Side Boob Festival. There’s just so much of it. It was an interesting exercise for a woman in the last year before she hits 50. I have never felt more like Stifler’s Mum. Perhaps slightly less predatory, but only slightly. I think it was the first time I’ve actually felt my age. In fact, if you wanted an experience to make you feel like some sort of decaying artefact, then this is the one.  It was like being an Avatar. A really really old one. I also attained magical powers of invisibility. I tested it by exposing not just side boob but whole boob.  Nothing.  I swear they could have walked right through me. Some did. Chubby faced little darlings.  It hardly seems possible that they would be allowed out on their own. They’re still babies. Wasn’t that long ago they were in their little walkers, or sitting up in high chairs being fed. I could imagine them with their spray tanned little legs hanging down, face smeared in avocado.  I looked at their sweet young-people faces. Its like they haven’t grown their adult faces yet. They are ripening fruit on the adult tree, the faces, not quite assembled into the look that they will carry through in life.  Its like when you open the oven for muffins and they’ve all puffed up to the top. Pull em out of the oven let em  drop and they’re ready to eat. I, on the other hand, am one of those muffins thats been on display since Monday. Still available for purchase, but dry. Not these little muffins. These happy muffin  faces are full of optimism. They’re not worrying about putting their tax in. Or mortgage payments. Their biggest outlay would be paying the plan on the latest iPhone 7. They won’t be facing the pension assets tests for decades, and when they do, thanks to an over inflated housing market, the poor little fuckers won’t have any assets.They can’t even afford to move out of home now. I can tell they all still live at home. It’s why they’re so excited about being ‘OUT’. They’re not being told to unpack the dishwasher. Their tiny shorts are all ironed. Some still have that overly nurtured look you get when Mum licks your hair down. Some of them have Mums and Dads waiting for them in the carpark. They’re bouncing around the site. And they also appear to be heat resistant. Even the ginger ones. Although some are striped so vividly red and white they look like the uneaten side of a tub of neapolitan ice-cream. I want to pinch their cheeks. Now I am ageing and my cheeks have sag instead of puff I understand why old ladies pinch the chubby cheeks of children. It’s impossible not to. They still have all their own collagen. Lots of it. Little fat faces all swollen with youth, and hope and promise. That will go soon enough. Nothing like a few years of disappointment to get the puff out of your face and into your arse.  Some still have acne. I don’t want to tell them the sad truth. When the acne goes the wrinkles come. Their livers still function at peak levels. And  they can stay in tents. Without complaining. They think its fun! Shitty sun exposed tents randomly pitched around a field near a road. Unbelievable! Old women like me can’t stay in that kind of accommodation. We need 1000 thread sheets and King size beds. Air conditioning, room service and quiet. I dream of a day when the promoters  hold a music festival at a five star resort. Chairs. Sit down gigs. A selection of fine wines. And no more than 200 people at each concert. And all of them freshly washed.  I never used to be like this. I used to be like them. The old lady in me feels a strange maternal fondness for them. It all lies ahead for them. Life hasn’t happened yet. These are like soldiers before they are sent to battle. They haven’t witnessed the horror. Or the wonder. They’re about to enter the front line, and I’m about to leave it. Ironically I’m meditating on this as  I trip on uneven ground. It hurts. I don’t bounce. I thud. The next festival I’ll be going to won’t be Falls Music it will be Falls Prevention. Ah, the circle of life. Happy New Year.

 

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  1. Ha ha I completely understand where you are coming from. The mind says I’m only 25 but the mirror says “Shit who is that old bag “. Ready to party til the wee hours of night and the brain gets to 10.30pm and gou going Um time for bed.

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